What keeps you awake at night?

The last time I had a conversation with one of my colleagues, there were 2 questions that he asked, that keep coming back to my mind every now and then.

Tapi I rasa I nak share satu je dulu sebab baru-baru ni I rasa I dah jumpa jawapan untuk yg satu ni.

Do you have things that keep you awake at night?

Masa tu, jawapan I - NO. 

Then you are able to sleep peacefully at night?

Dan I jawab - YES.

Cuma lepas tu I terfikir why? Is there anything that I'm missing out in my life? Sebab I rasa I have everything yang I perlu, I ada orang yang I sayang, then apa lagi? 

Tapi kadang-kadang juga I tertanya-tanya, why my life is so perfect (to me lah) sampaikan I have nothing to complaint dah. Setahu I, mesti sedikit sebanyak akan ada dugaan tapi for years dah, I rasa tak ada apa yang perlu I risaukan.

Alhamdulillah.

Tapi, finally when this thing happened, I tetiba teringat balik kepada soalan tu and I rasa I dah ada jawapan.

There are 2 things that can make you awake at night;

1. Excitement
2. Sadness

Different situations and different feelings, but both can't make you sleep well eventually.

How I wish the excitement that keeps me awake tapi Tuhan tentukan yang sekali sekala dia nak bagi I rasa kesedihan juga. Kesedihan yang teramat perit pulak tu sepanjang hidup I.

Terima kasih atas pengalaman ini ya Allah. Dan Kau juga tahu apa doa yang aku panjatkan kepada-Mu setiap waktu, sekarang.

To myself;

Be strong now, because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.

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